I hope she would have never done this..

Gumraah - End of Innocence. This is a show which tells about teenagers
taking the action which they should not have taken.
So the episode that made me cry.
There was a happy family One elder son,
One younger sister the best sister,
One papa, One good mummy and
one bad grandmother.
Grandmother here is the mother of the father.
The father always wanted that his son should be a sports man.
Well it was because his father wanted to be a sportsman.
So it was like father making his dream come true through his son.
Like if father couldn't be a sportsman so his son would become.
And the child kept complaining about the pain in his lower abdomen,
like in the stomach.
But parents kept ignoring it like if there is no problem.
But one day when he was playing a tennis match in the tournament
and that was it he felt unconscious and he felt down in the court.
He was then taken to the hospital where it was like a very shocking
news for the parents. His one kidney had become dysfunctional and
other was like very critical or very severly damaged.
I'm Sorry I didn't remember the exact medical terms.
But he was on dylasis, and it was horrible that you
could not do anything.
So you can imagine the conditon??
The family felt broken.
But the ugly part was his sister was ignored continuously.
She was so kind so much beautiful.
She was very small like 10 or 12 years old.
She was constantly ignored at home.
Her grandmother always scolds at her.
She was held responsible by her grandmother, for her brothers health.
I mean how could she be responsible for his health.
What she had done??
Whats her mistake in life?
Do you know she was selected as a prefect in school.
She told her brother.
Her brother was her best friend.
She shared all her happiness with him.
They were best friends na.
But she was constantly ignored, in her own home by her own family members except her brother.
She felt less important.
Her self esteem was getting low. She felt that no one cared about her.
And eventually at the hospital her sweet brother was fghting between death and life.
His father also said to doctor to take out his kidney and give it to his son.
But see the fate he can't because his father is having high blood pressure So you know...
And they were really having shortage of money.
They were cutting everything.
That mature young girl said she would stop going to tuition classes.
Her mother resisted but they didn't have money so ummm... she stopped going there.
No one had ever felt whats going in her mind.
What was happening to her.
She had developed a kind of defence mechanism for herself.
Like she had a friend in a school, they were good friends, they had lunch together,
so her friend told her that her mother told her that her brother is ill too much.
She said No. He'll be alright.
Her friend said her mother doesn't lies.
That nice girl the best sister she said I've got a better idea.
Let's not talk to each other.
So then she kept to herself only.
She was so much killing herself inside.
She had that feeling that because of her only her brother is in hospital.
I don't know from where she had grown such thoughts.
And one night her father kept weeping and came to home.
All the money had vanished everything is empty.
they don't have money left.
So....
The sweet little sister heard everything.
She was sitting there on the staires.
And she became so upset.
Like she really want to help her parents.
She does something which should not have been done at that time.
She drank the bottle of poison and ended her life.
She felt that she is not at all important.
You can imagine the condition of the family. The parents.
She didn't realize she was so much important for the family.
She was also the part of the family.
After two months of her death her mother found the suicide note.
Written by her "Mummy - Papa please give my kidney to my brother and bring him back home.
I'm sure one day my brother will become good sportsman."

Parents should treat their children equally.
Children are sensitive.
They leave signs before commiting suicide.
Please Please see it.
They keep to themselves.
They build a kind of defence mechanism like to protect their ego.
And you will never know it.
I know how it feels like.
No one cares for you and you cannot trust anyone.
Pleasen listen to them.
Don't ever ever ignore them.
They are precious.
Suicide is not the solution..

Why can't people understand??

I live in a world today where no one cares about others.
I also feel like that no one cares what I feel.
What I think is to myself only.
Eveyone wants to earn money and save it..
Enjoy the luxuries of life.
It's just my intitutions and feelings that when a person
earns a lot of money and you know he is not a good person so I
think that the person spends his earned money on sex.
High class escort services and prostitutes.
I really don't understand why people do such kind of things.
You know this so called rich people are actually rich menace.
Are their feelings dead??
Or they don't feel anything just because their feelings are dead.
This episode on crime patrol and yep I cried like everytime I do.
I cry on regular basis.
I really cry while taking the shower, it's the best thing to cry like this.
No one can see me crying.
I cry so much by watching this show.
Ummmmm...
So in this episode a girl, she was 15 years old and she was missing.
If she had been missing all life it would be better but that's cruel life.
Her father had a shop of vegetables.
A small shop and he used to sell vegetables.
And he had son also, I don't know his age.
Her daughter used to live with her grandmother from the age of three and she was really happy there.
Her grandmother was nice to her.
They were living in a small village.
She was happy there and she also used to go to school there.
So her father took her away from her grandmother when she was thirteen.
She didn't want to go with her father.
She resisted but her father took her away.
Took her away from her grandmother.
What he said her was that it was for her betterment, her well being, better education.
So ummmm this was terrible.
That was actually the part of plan.
She was a nice girl but her father had different plans for her.
Her father brought her here so that he could sell her to make money.
He and his friend sold that girl to old men so that they could have sex with her and ummmm.
She used to vomit after sex.
After this incidence she was being sold to brothel.
Where you know... So she was in the bus and she somehow escaped from there.
When she was found the policemen asked her why she didn't tell her mother and what she said was really cruel things.
She said that when she said to her mother that she didn't like this she feels like vomitting.
So her mother said that if you have done it then what's the matter in doing it again.
She was such a cruel thing.
She said that money is necessary for family as brother is studying.
See no one cares about her and what she feels like.
Now the girl is in rehabiliton centre ummm called as CWC.
I think they will take nice care of her.
She would be happy there.
She would get rehabilated and soon she she will be between nice people.
I just cry... nothing else.
Tears are waste.
I do cry  very much.
Ummm if you remember the day when I wrote the message that I cannot trust anyone.
This was it...

An hour with a lady.. (Copied one)

It took me a lot of time to decide whether or not to write about this incident in my life. As a guy who has been born and brought up in a relatively conservative and God-fearing family, my values are mostly that of a "middle-class" man. Sex is still taboo for this class. However, the fact that I have written openly about it is a verity, and I have no regrets because I don"t feel any guilt for writing what I think is right.

It happened a few weeks ago when I was in Goa. Goa is today, among the world"s foremost tourist destinations. People of all colours and creeds are found here. Their purpose for coming here-to "enjoy"! Prostitution too, is very much a part of this. I wasn"t aware of this fact until I was at Margao beach.

I was alone, walking parallel to the waves. Walking steadily, I was recalling all the momentous incidents in my life. The first woman I fell in love with, the person who gave me so much without any expectations; my parents, away from whom I was to start a new life; and also, my friends and admirers who have been a source of not just perpetual happiness but also inspiration.

After walking a few paces, I decided to sit on one of the benches. Suddenly, I noticed a young lady, somewhere in her mid-20s, sitting at a distance from me. She was beautiful and charming; but there was something unrealistic about her. I could not for the life of me, figure out why a lady would be on the beach in the evening, all made up-a lot of make-up on.

As I always do, I gave her a smile which she reciprocated. I felt like talking to her. Being a person who has made so many friends, I truly don"t believe in the concept of "strangers". A person is stranger to you as long as you don"t know him or her. And once you know that person he or she is no longer a stranger. That"s my philosophy.

Surprisingly, she herself came over and offered a handshake saying, "Hi! I"m Natasha." And I replied, "Hi, nice to see you, Natasha. I"m Mahesh." "Can I sit next to you"? she asked, a bit artificially. "Sure, please do!" I assented.

For a while we didn"t talk. I am not very comfortable with women. Yes, I have interacted with them, but not so well. I am not a "ladies man". I am good-looking, but still I haven"t been lucky with women.

"So what"s your plan tonight"? she asked. "Well. I"m not sure. my lady", I said. "Would you like to take me with you"? she asked. I was dumbfounded! "Is she a prostitute"? I asked myself. I didn"t have to wait long for the answer. "I will take just 500 bucks", she said. "Oh, damn"! I thought, "this isn"t happening. Or is it"?

I felt like running but I stayed put-for no reason. Most of the things I do in life haven"t had any "reasons". I asked her why she was in this profession. She wasn"t honest when she answered, "I love it"!

She spoke good English, but her accent was artificial. "Well my friend, I am not interested in sleeping with you," I said adding "I haven"t been with a prostitute in my life. You are the first one. So I would like to know something about you."

She was a bit hesitant. And she told me stories I didn"t want to believe. Mostly because they were the kind you find in movies. I told her very frankly, "Look lady, I am not able to believe you because your eyes aren"t honest. I am a man who appreciates people in all hues and colours. I have a knack with people and can tell in a few minutes whether or not, they are lying to me. You are lying."

She smiled a while, scratched her head with her index finger, and looked away for a while. Perhaps she was not prepared to share her story with me. "What are you anyways" she asked. I laughed, before I countered, "What do you think I am"? She was completely unprepared for this kind of a situation. "I don"t know. You are an enigma to me", she said, adding "but yes, you do look like a good-hearted person".

"Thank you so much. But how can you say that"? I enquired, rather enthusiastically. "That"s because if you were someone who was too orthodox, you would have run away from me and if you were a sex maniac, you would not have wasted any time in getting me into bed. You are a strange person, but you look good. I hope you aren"t a psycho", she said.

I couldn"t resist it and erupted in laughter. "Sorry, but I haven"t met any psychiatrist who could confirm or deny it" I conveyed.

I went on to have a great conversation with her. She was a very experienced woman; perhaps older than I had initially thought her to be. But all that matters is that she was a great companion. Finally, after listening to several anecdotes from me, she felt more comfortable. Her artificiality began to fade. She was a different, but more honest-looking person to me now.

"What is your background, Natasha"? I asked, again. "Well, Natasha is my business name. I was called Mujassim and come from Bengal. Our home is close to Bangladesh. It"s replete with poverty. People don"t have enough money to buy a loaf of bread a day. So I came here to earn a living."

"Who is in your family"? I enquired.

"Just my husband, his parents, and two younger siblings", was her reply.

"Did you say "husband""? I queried.

"Yes, that"s right".

"What does he do? Does he know you do this?"

"Well, actually he was a farmer. A few years ago, he had a major accident which left him partially handicapped. He was the only bread earner of the family; his parents are ill all the time and younger siblings are still studying. and yes, he does know what I do here." She looked down as she said this.

"Can"t you do something else"?

"Like what"? she asked.

"You speak good English, perhaps you could get placement in a call centre in Bangalore or some place", I suggested.

"Well, someone did tell me about that, but that is not sufficient. My husband"s siblings are studying and we want them to get a good education. Also, I learnt English very recently. There is a person who runs such classes and charges a nominal fee," she said.

Suddenly, I was in introspection mode.
"What are you thinking of"?

"Well Mujassim, I was just wondering why a person like you would get into this? It"s such a filthy affair. And that too hailing from a community where women are ever veiled, I find your story so saddening," I told her.

"But what would you say of those women who even after marrying and having kids go after other men? What about those who, despite hailing from distinguished families continue to sleep with men whom they are never going to marry? Why only us?" she retorted, this time strongly.

"If you go back in history, even the Islamic civilization had sex trade. Because it was the only mechanism by which "virtuous women" could be protected from rape and other sexual abuse. We still do that job," she said.

"We might take some money. so what? It"s our business. We are doing it for the sake of a livelihood. If someone could offer me a few lakhs of rupees, enough to sustain my family, I would happily go back. I don"t like doing this-to be VERY HONEST! But I am helpless. I may lose my conscience, sir, but my family survives. And what faith am I to follow on an empty stomach?"

Her words were truly thought-provoking. We continued our conversation for a while, before parting ways. I offered her 500 bucks, but she declined to accept. "It"s for your time. So, have it", I told her when she refused the money. "No, sir, that"s fine. You are a nice man. For years I didn"t find a person who could talk to an attractive lady like a good friend. I feel much better after talking to you. Please don"t mock my sentiments by giving me money," she said, further adding, "You have a fatherly image".

She brought a few tears to my eyes. I saw no flaw in her, she was absolutely fine. She was in the wrong job, but her intentions weren"t wrong. I just prayed to God to give her a righteous job. I hope her sacrifice will not be forgotten by those who are benefiting from it her in-laws.

Prostitutes are looked at with shame and indignity by our society. True, they sell their body in exchange for money but what about those women, and, of course, men, who get into sexual relationships with every other person? Aren"t they worse than those prostitutes? I"m sure they are!

Prostitution in Goa..

Prostitution is the act or practice of providing sexual services to another person in return for payment. People who execute such activities are called Prostitutes. Goa has become a main target for prostitution in the recent years. The history of prostitution in Goa dates back to the late 16th and 17th centuries when Goa was a Portuguese colony. There was a community of Japanese slaves, who were usually young Japanese women and girls brought or captured as sexual slaves by Portuguese traders and their South Asian crewmembers from Japan.
REASONS FOR WOMEN GETTING INTO PROSTITUTION

• A woman is molested in the past and this is become acceptable in her life.
• Receiving less love and attention from families.
• Woman who earns poor income feel that prostitution is an easier and quicker way to get money for a better standard of living.
• Some women among the backward masses are forced into prostitution by peer groups, families, husbands and kidnapping is also a cause.
• For a feeling of pleasure and satisfaction.
• Failure in marriage and abandoned family life.
• Having acquaintances with a pimp or brothel, or women living as guest houses, hostels easily get carried away in this trade.
• No proper sex education
• The rise in number of child prostitution is because girls are given false promises of marriage, jobs and are sold to other states. Also as children want to adopt newer ways of luxurious life and their pocket money doesn’t permit them to do so. They choose prostitution as a means.

Prostitution in Goa began came to rise due to the prostitution racket in Baina, Vasco. The women here were mainly from Karnataka, West Bengal, Andhra Pradesh, Delhi, Maharashtra, Kerala and many more states of India. The place was divided into slums or “gallis” known as Andhra galli, Karnataka galli, Kerala galli and so on. After tearing down of Baina’s red light area in 2004 prostitutes were promised rehabilitation but the Government failed to keep up to their promise. It is like “old wine in a new bottle”. The business is the same but the girls are now better educated and pimps are using latest technology to operate and attract high paying clients. From then, prostitutes spread all over the state of Goa. They are almost in all the cities in the North and South of Goa carrying out the trade on a full swing in Lodges, Hotels, Massage Parlours, Cyber Cafe’s, Call Centres, Fishing Trawlers, Shacks, Highways, Slums, Residential Areas, Interior Hidden Places, Clubs, Beaches, Hostels, Paying Guest Homes and many more places. Taxi drivers, Motorcycle Pilots, Waiters, Chai boys, Beach Hawkers are contact points.
WHY GOA AS A TARGET FOR PROSTITUTION?

• Increasing number of events and festivals.
• Tourism on the rise
• Easy to bribe cops.
• No strict laws and regulations
• Politicians support for votes
• Increase in need for migrant labour as means for employment.

TYPES OF PROSTITUTION PHENOMENON IN GOA

• Brothel based prostitution: Baina & Margao
• Street based prostitution: Vasco, Margao, Colva, Panjim, Calangute, Anjuna
• Hotel based prostitution: All over Goa
• Vehicle based prostitution: North & South Goa- Tourist belt and crowded market areas

Traffickers are the people involved to get sex workers in Goa and the trafficked people are the victims.

• Brothel keepers previously operating in Baina
• Few pilots (Two wheeler taxi) and taxi owners
• Few hotels and lodges in the tourist areas and on the highways – Karwar, Mollem & Sawantwadi.

Mostly in Goa the target of action is not the traffickers but the trafficked victims. Most of the offences booked are against trafficked victims and not against the traffickers. Trafficked victims are arrested but no customer, pimp, transport agent, lodge owner; hotel owner, taxi owner, etc are arrested, though the law is very clear that those who commercialize prostitution and those who benefit from the earning from prostitution are committing an offence.
SOUTH GOA PROSTITUTION REGISTERED CASES
The police have registered a few cases. But a majority escaped from the hands of the police. Prostitution in South Goa is mainly in Margao, Vasco, Canacona, Curchorem, Curtorim, Colva, Benaulim, Sanguem, Ponda and the coastal belt. There are many prostitutes loitering around in search for bait. The police identify them through the obscene hand gestures, vulgar body acts and facial expressions made by them. The prostitute women caught were mostly from districts of Rajmandhi and Vishakapatanam in Andhra Pradesh, Karnataka, Kerala and sadly a few from Goa as well. They mainly are from the age group of 35-50. But child and teen prostitutes are preferred due to their virginity and less risk of transmition of AIDS and Sexually transmitted diseases. The customers are men from other states who migrate to Goa as migrant labourers and other backward men. They are from the age group of 20-60. Goans are also involved in as customers but mainly act as traffickers or brothels for earning by means of sex trade. Goan women get into prostitution mainly due to poor standard of living.
The female prostitutes including Goans earning higher incomes are usually found in massage parlours, beach side shacks, cyber cafe’s, beauty parlours, hotels in Goa. They use cars as means of obtaining customers and shelter in luxury hotels for their business. These are less caught by the police. Tourist prostitutes are also found in the same category and are found mostly on beach areas, shacks, hotels situated on the coastal belt.
Some of the examples of traffickers in the coastal belt:

• Brothel in Benaulim carrying out sex trade and customers are mostly locals of South Goa. Almost 7-8 dogs are kept outside as means of protection.
• Almost all the shacks and shops on the Colva Beach are major traffickers and agents for sex trade. Even the taxi drivers and motorcycle pilots are involved in this racket. 49’ers is a major prostitution spot in Colva.

2008: 8 cases

1. Navelim case happened in a closed house in Fradilem
2. Old market- 3 cases
3. Gandhi market- 4 cases

19 people were arrested in this year among the registered cases of which 6 were male customers and 13 were females involved in the case.
2009: 10 cases

1. Hotel Goa Land, near the flyover, Margao- 3cases
2. Hotel Tandoor, Margao- 2 cases
3. Near flyover over Bridge, Margao
4. Near Hari Mandir, Margao
5. Karishma Hotel, Margao- 2 cases

18 accused were arrested in this year among the registered cases of which 6 were male customers and 12 were females involved. 4 females were rescued by the police and sent to the NGO named Positive People.
2010: 11 cases

1. Shezer Hotel, Khareband, Margao- 6 cases
2. Hotel Goa Land, Near flyover, Margao- 4 cases
3. Hotel Karishma, Margao

2011: 3 cases till date

1. Shezer Hotel, Khareband, Margao

LAW

Section 3- The Suppression of Prostitution Act
Section 4- “Prostitution” means sexual intercourse, or any other act, or the commission of any other act in order to gratify the sexual desire of another person in a promiscuous manner in return for earning or any other benefit, irrespective of whether the person who accepts the act and the person who commits the act are of the same sex or not.
Section 5- Any person who, for the purpose of prostitution, solicits, induces, introduces herself or himself to, follows or importunes a person in a street, public place or any other place, which is committed openly and shamelessly or causes nuisance to the public, shall be liable to a fine not exceeding one thousand.
Section 6- Any person who associates with another person in a prostitution establishment for the purpose of prostitution of oneself or another person shall be liable to imprisonment for a term not exceeding one month or to a fine not exceeding one thousand or to both. If the offence under paragraph one is committed on account of compulsion or under an influence which cannot be avoided or resisted, the offender is not guilty.
Section 7- Any person who advertises or agrees to advertise, induces or introduces by means of documents or printed matters, or by any means makes known to the public in a manner apparently indicative of importunity or solicitation for the prostitution of oneself or another person shall be liable to imprisonment for a term of six months to two years or to a fine of ten thousand to forty thousand or to both.
Section 8- Any person who, in order to gratify the sexual desire of oneself or another person, has sexual intercourse with or acts otherwise against a person over fifteen but not over eighteen years of age in a prostitution establishment, with or without his or her consent, shall be liable to imprisonment for a term of one to three years and to a fine of twenty thousand to sixty thousand. If the offence under paragraph one is committed against a child not over fifteen years of age, the offender shall be liable to imprisonment for a term of two to six years and to a fine of forty thousand to one hundred twenty thousand. If the act under paragraph one is committed against one’s own spouse, and not to gratify the sexual desire of another person, the offender is not guilty.
POLICE ACTION
The Goa Police doesn’t take any strict action against prostitution in Goa. Incase of the women/victim they are just warned and asked to pay some fines. And if they are found on continuous basis, they are sent to the NGO i.e. Positive people for rehabilitation. In case of male customers they are arrested. A chargesheet is filed against them and they are kept in the lock up. And if they are found on continuous basis they are put in the Aguada Jail. And if he is found with a minor, the punishment exceeds even upto life imprisonment.
If any brothel or hotel still continues even after warnings they are closed down and their license is cancelled. 2 hotels in Margao are closed down.
They conduct frequent raids mostly in Gandhi Market area and near the flyover.
PROCEDURE FOR CONDUCTING RAIDS
The police have spies known as Peer Educators who act as prostitutes for them. They are given responsibility of certain areas. If they find any  suspicious behaviour or if they come across any prostitution case happening they inform the police. These spies even give details such as location or brothel in which the business is carried out. These prostitutes then come to the victims along with the police in civil clothes to the areas and raids are conducted. Initially, the lower level in the Police department had n o authority to conduct raids. But now they are allowed to do so.
NGO IN ACTION
Positive People is an NGO which presently functions in collaboration with the Margao Police. It started operations in the year 1992 as a media to pass on awareness about HIV AIDS and conduct counselling to the public. Since 2005, the Goa State Aids Control Society has given them the responsibility to conduct awareness programmes among the prostitutes and counsel them to lead a better life. They are expected to take care of certain areas in South Goa.
They mainly provide awareness about HIV AIDS and STD’s to the prostitutes and supply condoms as a means for protection. They do this in a manner of field trips, i.e. they visit all the areas take them for ELISA test to Hospicio Hospital and educated them. They get help from the police and Peer Educators to find the victims. If required, they get the victim to the NGO to counsel them. They cannot stop prostitution as it is an individual choice. But they help to make it safer preventing the risk of Aids. Presently they have 21 Aids patients.
Taluka wise distribution of HIV cases detected in Goa since the Baina incident are as follows:

Taluka	2004	2005	2006	2007	2008	2009	2010
Tiswadi	166	161	111	113	122	104	68
Bardez	150	127	133	149	133	140	117
Pernem	20	12	33	24	16	14	10
Bicholim	26	29	35	35	25	30	17
Satari	7	17	9	12	12	19	16
Ponda	48	62	55	48	55	41	34
Salcete	195	198	175	183	172	154	106
Mormugao	182	192	183	148	154	149	153
Sanguem	12	36	15	26	12	30	23
Quepem	23	23	14	39	21	22	23
Canacona	17	20	22	29	23	11	27
Non Goans	110	152	155	223	209	187	175
Total	956	1029	940	1029	954	901	769

Some victims choose to lead a better life but as they are already known as prostitutes they are pin pointed wherever they go. So, they get back to their business. Some victims choose a better life and approach them for help. They are now working elsewhere and are quite happy about it.
The main areas focussed by the NGO

• Canacona- Palolem Beach, Chaudi Market, Market Area, Bus Stand
• Curchorem- Garden Area, Bus Stand, Market Area
• Quepem- Tilamol
• Margao- Gandhi Market, Flyover, KTC, Municipal Garden, Colva Circle, New Market, Railway Station.

Activities carried out by Positive People:

• They have regular meetings known as Support Group Meetings in which victims express their problems and are helped by the NGO.
• They have DIC (Drop In Centre) wherein the NGO organises a programme for them at the NGO wherein they have various competitions like Dance, singing, mehendi, celebrate birthdays etc..
• Organising HealthCamps
• Celebrating World AIDS day & Women’s day

SOME OF THE POLITICIANS INVOLVEMENT IN PROSTITUTION
Dayanand Narvekar 
As far back as in 1989, a young woman claimed that Dayanand Narvekar had attempted to molest her in his chamber in the Adil Shah Palace when he was speaker. Though a police case was filed and Dayanand Narvekar was forced to resign his position as speaker of the then Legislative Assembly, the case never was charge-sheeted. Narvekar did not have as much luck with the charge of molesting and looting cricket fans during the one day match held in the Fatorda stadium in 2001. The case is still pending in the courts and Narvekar was dropped from the cabinet on the claim that since the case had been charge-sheeted, his continuance as finance minister in the cabinet of Digamber Kamat would not be ethical.
Babush Monserrate
Education Minister Babush Monserrate is said to be running a call girl racket from a building opposite Dhempe College of Arts and Science in Miramar, using a cybercafé as a contact point. The rumours were that the call girl racket was being operated by Babush Monserrate and that several other politicians had been patronising the prostitution den. Presumably, because very important people or their sons were involved and the political compulsions of running a coalition government, the police were instructed not to follow up the case. There have always been rumours about the voracious sexual appetite in Taleigao. There were persistent rumours that the flats in the Kamat complex opposite the Dhempe college which were supposed to be the scene of the Miramar sex scandal, were owned by Babush Monserrate. The Hallmark franchise shop is owned by Babush Monserrate, where several women were pointed to be Babush’s passions of the moment and his son Rohit was also involved.

I think everyone should read it.. It's important to know the truth.

Barfi..

It's a movie I watched yesterday.
It made me cry and sad.
It gave me a definition to love.
What love is really?
For that girl love is when you take care of each other.
Live with each other.
You are happy with each other.
And then you spend rest of the life each other.
And then die one day, in each others arms.
I don't know that thing.
Maybe I'm not that mature to understand such things.
Do you know if I'm staring a girl.
She could easily recognize that the staring is not out of lust.
It's something else.
I really don't know the answer as well.

Do you know every time you make compromise in your life.
You love someone else, you marry someone else.
You both love each other.
And because of this society.
You marry someone else.
You are actually making your future secure.
A girl's parents like her to be married to a guy who is rich.
I mean you really make wrong decisions in life.
People marry with whom the find their future secure.
I mean you are going to marry who has got a good salary, good job, good reputation.
And all the comforts.
But the main thing is love is missing.
You both speak but still there is silence.
There is a talk between you but it is just formal.
Love becomes show off.
You are lost somewhere, under your name of the husband.
You are worried about only the status of the society.
You don't care about love.
You care about what people will think.

If you are really searching for a husband with money, good reputation, a sophisticated person in this fake society.
It's the biggest you are ever going to make.
You are lost somewhere with your brain that you don't even realize to listen to what your heart says.
Just listen to it once.
Forget about this society.
Just live your life with love.
If you find love, Happiness will always follow you.
May be salary will be low.
You would not be able to travel in business class.
Maybe you would have a small moped.
Maybe you would not be able to go to five star restaurants.
But you'll love each other.
No matter how your lifestyle is you will be happy.

And the guys, who are important in shaping in this fake society.
I really do think that not some in fact most of the guys sees girls as a sex object.
I don't know why I have such feelings but that's true.
A guy is going to marry a girl I think for sex only.
I don't know may be I'm wrong.
But when it comes to feelings in guys I really hate that part.
Although guys are okay.
I don't know about the girls.
Maybe some of the girls are like that too.
Use the guy for money.
Then it's over.
 Maybe I'm wrong about the guys and girls.
But it's my perception.
So please don't mind.

But just find a true love.
I know it's really  difficult to find.
And It's rare actually.
But don't follow the norms which society or parents sets for you.
Live your life.
I know it will help you.
I bet on it.

 

A confession of past..

Today is 18 September 2012,
My old friend's birthday.
I was in college wished him through the the phone only.
I talked to him, it felt good. The past we talked about.
The future plans.
On that day I went for a movie with my college friends.
The name of the movie was "Barfi".
It was a emotional movie.
Made me upset.
I cried it reminded me of something.
I was so much traumatized. I was in deep pain.
I was not able to cry even.
I cannot cry in the class.
Not in front of my friends.
They know I'm sensitive.
There is a kid in my neighborhood.
He is autistic, He is special.
He comes to my home.
I remember, I hurt him once.
I was a menace.
I didn't care for his feelings.
I was not patient with him.
I hurt him.
I hurt him because he was not able to express.
I was there hurting him.
Crushing his hand.
I'm feeling guilty.
I know there is no way to repay it.
Today when I was sitting in the lecture classroom it came like a flash to my mind.
I was feeling so much guilty.
I could not explain.
I was feeling like that I was using my power on that little hands.
There was no mistake of him.
Why would he do any mistake?
I didn't enjoy hurting him.
But why would I hurt him?
I was a bad person at that moment.
I was a menace.
I'm asking God to forgive my sins.
I repent.
Please God forgive me.
Show me your path of light.
Show me the way to correct that mistake.