Monday, 19 November 2012

I hope she would have never done this..

Gumraah - End of Innocence. This is a show which tells about teenagers
taking the action which they should not have taken.
So the episode that made me cry.
There was a happy family One elder son,
One younger sister the best sister,
One papa, One good mummy and
one bad grandmother.
Grandmother here is the mother of the father.
The father always wanted that his son should be a sports man.
Well it was because his father wanted to be a sportsman.
So it was like father making his dream come true through his son.
Like if father couldn't be a sportsman so his son would become.
And the child kept complaining about the pain in his lower abdomen,
like in the stomach.
But parents kept ignoring it like if there is no problem.
But one day when he was playing a tennis match in the tournament
and that was it he felt unconscious and he felt down in the court.
He was then taken to the hospital where it was like a very shocking
news for the parents. His one kidney had become dysfunctional and
other was like very critical or very severly damaged.
I'm Sorry I didn't remember the exact medical terms.
But he was on dylasis, and it was horrible that you
could not do anything.
So you can imagine the conditon??
The family felt broken.
But the ugly part was his sister was ignored continuously.
She was so kind so much beautiful.
She was very small like 10 or 12 years old.
She was constantly ignored at home.
Her grandmother always scolds at her.
She was held responsible by her grandmother, for her brothers health.
I mean how could she be responsible for his health.
What she had done??
Whats her mistake in life?
Do you know she was selected as a prefect in school.
She told her brother.
Her brother was her best friend.
She shared all her happiness with him.
They were best friends na.
But she was constantly ignored, in her own home by her own family members except her brother.
She felt less important.
Her self esteem was getting low. She felt that no one cared about her.
And eventually at the hospital her sweet brother was fghting between death and life.
His father also said to doctor to take out his kidney and give it to his son.
But see the fate he can't because his father is having high blood pressure So you know...
And they were really having shortage of money.
They were cutting everything.
That mature young girl said she would stop going to tuition classes.
Her mother resisted but they didn't have money so ummm... she stopped going there.
No one had ever felt whats going in her mind.
What was happening to her.
She had developed a kind of defence mechanism for herself.
Like she had a friend in a school, they were good friends, they had lunch together,
so her friend told her that her mother told her that her brother is ill too much.
She said No. He'll be alright.
Her friend said her mother doesn't lies.
That nice girl the best sister she said I've got a better idea.
Let's not talk to each other.
So then she kept to herself only.
She was so much killing herself inside.
She had that feeling that because of her only her brother is in hospital.
I don't know from where she had grown such thoughts.
And one night her father kept weeping and came to home.
All the money had vanished everything is empty.
they don't have money left.
So....
The sweet little sister heard everything.
She was sitting there on the staires.
And she became so upset.
Like she really want to help her parents.
She does something which should not have been done at that time.
She drank the bottle of poison and ended her life.
She felt that she is not at all important.
You can imagine the condition of the family. The parents.
She didn't realize she was so much important for the family.
She was also the part of the family.
After two months of her death her mother found the suicide note.
Written by her "Mummy - Papa please give my kidney to my brother and bring him back home.
I'm sure one day my brother will become good sportsman."

Parents should treat their children equally.
Children are sensitive.
They leave signs before commiting suicide.
Please Please see it.
They keep to themselves.
They build a kind of defence mechanism like to protect their ego.
And you will never know it.
I know how it feels like.
No one cares for you and you cannot trust anyone.
Pleasen listen to them.
Don't ever ever ignore them.
They are precious.
Suicide is not the solution..

Why can't people understand??

I live in a world today where no one cares about others.
I also feel like that no one cares what I feel.
What I think is to myself only.
Eveyone wants to earn money and save it..
Enjoy the luxuries of life.
It's just my intitutions and feelings that when a person
earns a lot of money and you know he is not a good person so I
think that the person spends his earned money on sex.
High class escort services and prostitutes.
I really don't understand why people do such kind of things.
You know this so called rich people are actually rich menace.
Are their feelings dead??
Or they don't feel anything just because their feelings are dead.
This episode on crime patrol and yep I cried like everytime I do.
I cry on regular basis.
I really cry while taking the shower, it's the best thing to cry like this.
No one can see me crying.
I cry so much by watching this show.
Ummmmm...
So in this episode a girl, she was 15 years old and she was missing.
If she had been missing all life it would be better but that's cruel life.
Her father had a shop of vegetables.
A small shop and he used to sell vegetables.
And he had son also, I don't know his age.
Her daughter used to live with her grandmother from the age of three and she was really happy there.
Her grandmother was nice to her.
They were living in a small village.
She was happy there and she also used to go to school there.
So her father took her away from her grandmother when she was thirteen.
She didn't want to go with her father.
She resisted but her father took her away.
Took her away from her grandmother.
What he said her was that it was for her betterment, her well being, better education.
So ummmm this was terrible.
That was actually the part of plan.
She was a nice girl but her father had different plans for her.
Her father brought her here so that he could sell her to make money.
He and his friend sold that girl to old men so that they could have sex with her and ummmm.
She used to vomit after sex.
After this incidence she was being sold to brothel.
Where you know... So she was in the bus and she somehow escaped from there.
When she was found the policemen asked her why she didn't tell her mother and what she said was really cruel things.
She said that when she said to her mother that she didn't like this she feels like vomitting.
So her mother said that if you have done it then what's the matter in doing it again.
She was such a cruel thing.
She said that money is necessary for family as brother is studying.
See no one cares about her and what she feels like.
Now the girl is in rehabiliton centre ummm called as CWC.
I think they will take nice care of her.
She would be happy there.
She would get rehabilated and soon she she will be between nice people.
I just cry... nothing else.
Tears are waste.
I do cry  very much.
Ummm if you remember the day when I wrote the message that I cannot trust anyone.
This was it...